Why we should never shame children (the tale of the pinwheel cookies)

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Many many moons ago when I was at school I had a cookery teacher who did not like the fact I was vegetarian. ‘Just cook it’ she would say, ‘you don’t have to eat it.’

‘No’ I would reply, ‘I don’t think its right.’

I was 12, she was MUCH older and I was scared of her. She was used to being in control and it was hard to find my voice. But I did and I was proud to stand up for my beliefs, even if a little daunted.

The dislike poured from her eyes. Who was I to challenge her? Even though my no’s were polite I could see she found me insolent. ‘I never had this trouble with your sister’ she would sneer.

Once she told me I had to cook fish, it wasn’t meat, she EXPECTED me too. I suggested we go and see what the headmaster thought. She didn’t take me up on the offer, I didn’t cook fish.

This was a hard battle for me. I was a very compliant kid and a good student and a bit fearful of authority.

One day as a class we made pin-wheel cookies. Something went wrong ( I was about to write I’m rubbish at baking and something went wrong, but I just stopped myself!)  The fat spread and the cookies were flat and a bit bubbly. I was intrigued as to why this happened and it could have /should have/would have been a good learning point. But instead the teacher pounced. This was her moment.

‘Gather round everyone’ she said (quite delightedly) ‘there is a bit of disaster over here, come and see what Becky has done to her biscuits.’ I remember she laughed, a not very nice laugh and the whole class gathered round to look at my biscuits. My face burned.  She had won the battle.

She had also shamed me.

For the next 30 years I told people I was rubbish at cooking.

It became my mantra. I barely even tried after that and as a result I had little practice and so my offerings, when I did bake were not particularly good. This just fuelled my lack of self belief. It became a bit of a joke really and usually I made the joke first. It became part of my identity that I could not cook.  I’d laugh about it first before anyone else did just so I didn’t feel that humiliation again of trying to get it right and failing.

Fast forward 33 years and my daughter did a cycling test at school . Lets just say it wasn’t a good experience and left her upset feeling really, really negative about her cycling ability.

I instinctively knew she need to get straight back on that bike and start cycling and keep working steadily to improve her skills. Not be unrealistic about where she was at, but most CERTAINLY not feel she couldn’t do it or was ‘rubbish’.

I hadn’t been a very good role model.

That evening I remade my pin-wheel cookies.

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They were something to celebrate, not because they were amazing, (they do need practice) but because I gave then another go. I was no longer defeated and once they were cooked –  well the fear had gone. The fear of embarrassing myself and feeling stupid. Had they been inedible well I would have thrown them away and had another bash. I had to show her getting something wrong is no big dea.l you just have another go and practice.

As a child we take on board what adults tell us. ‘It’s okay lets try again’ is SUCH a better message than ‘haha aren’t you useless.’

The next day we got the bikes out and went for a ride together down the canal path and practised a few things.

She’s getting there and having fun in the process.

Shaming kids can have long term impact, it can stop them trying and can push them into creating a negative self identity which can be both limiting and painful.

Pin-wheel cookie anyone?

 

 

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  1. Helen October 17, 2016 / 11:52 am

    I would put it down to a rubbish recipe from a rubbish cookery teacher. My cookery teacher was also an awful woman.

    well done on the pinwheel cookies, I knew you could do this baking lark. I personally think that everyone can. you just need (in the words of Take That) a little patience..

    x

    • becky October 17, 2016 / 12:00 pm

      Bless you Take That knew what it was all about !

  2. Jayne - Mum's the Word October 17, 2016 / 1:05 pm

    I genuinely just shed a little tear whilst reading this. I come from a family for whom derision and mockery is like BREATHING and as a result I have really deep self-esteem issues which rear their ugly head so often and cause me issues within otherwise healthy relationships. That nasty voice and caustic laughter that I used to hear so often has become a part of my inner monologue and I have to work SO hard to silence it, but it’s really not easy. I try to be the most positive person possible for my girls to avoid them ever having to feel the way I felt growing up and as an adult. Seeing your personal growth and ability to move forward is really inspiring and gives me hope that I can get past it one day, too. Thank you for sharing this wonderful post.

    • becky October 17, 2016 / 2:59 pm

      oh love ;(

  3. Lisa Warner October 17, 2016 / 6:50 pm

    I failed my cycling proficiency at school, I was the only child to fail. I remember the shame of it as if it was yesterday. I have for my whole lifetime seen myself as a failure when it comes to cycling, thinking maybe I should give it another try 🙂

    • becky October 18, 2016 / 5:30 am

      You so should!

  4. Stephie Chapman October 17, 2016 / 8:13 pm

    Damn, Becky, I’ll take a pinwheel!

    Also, yes to everything you’ve said here.

    • becky October 18, 2016 / 5:31 am

      You can have 2

  5. Jenny Paulin October 17, 2016 / 8:35 pm

    oh Becky this is such a thought provoking post. A teacher should never make her pupils feel the way that woman made you feel. she made you doubt your cooking abilities , of which I am sure she was very wrong, and of nothing else you have missed out of so many years of baking for fun and the hell of it. (hugs). I LOBVE that you remade this cookies and they look fine to me – I am RUBBISH at baking biscuits, honestly I am so believe me when I say yours look fab. xxx

    • becky October 18, 2016 / 5:29 am

      Lovely you x

  6. Michelle Twin Mum October 17, 2016 / 9:50 pm

    I love this and I bet the pinwheel cookies tasted so good. I have so many memories of things I have been ‘rubbish’ at for life as a teacher limited me. I am throwing off all those chains one by one and claiming back my rights to try everything though. Mich x

  7. becky October 18, 2016 / 5:31 am

    Fantastic to hear

  8. Nell (the Pigeon Pair and Me) October 18, 2016 / 9:56 am

    It’s so important to remind ourselves of this stuff. Everyone makes mistakes, but overcoming them is something people need support with. Sounds as though you’re acting like a great role model by getting back on that pinwheel horse (?!). Shame the teacher’s reaction to you deprived you of delicious baking pinwheel fun for all those years. x

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